I have less ideas lately. I meant to write another title in this blog, even though i’ll write about the movie. Well..nevertheless, i’ll keep writing now

First of all, I could not describe my thoughts well about this movie, it gave me deep impression about regrets. I watched this movie with all of my heart. I feel sorry for Michael Berg’s character that he could not stand up defending Hanna Schmitz in her court. On the other hand, he could not crush Hanna’s struggle to keep her standing tall by making her illiteracy as a secret. Which in fact, the truth that she could not read/write a letter could save her 20 years lifetime. Hanna kept her secret, and she didn’t know that it cost Michael’s peace life.

Some dialogs that automatically saved in my head.

Society think they operate by something called morality, but they don’t.
They operate by something called law.
The question is not ‘Was it wrong?’, but it’s illegal by our law.

I will not write the synopsis, it could be easily found in net. It’s not a light movie at all, but it could remind us not always to think from our side, even though in the end we should choose, in which side we should stand. I think there are lots of Hannah Schmitz executed when Indonesia tried to ‘clean up’ the society from communists in 1965.

The rainy days will be ended, I’ll have my personal sunshine, even though rain keeps coming
I don’t want to lose any moment just because i’ve been too long to look over my shoulder. Adventure is out there!!!

It’s almost 2 AM.
Can’t sleep, but i feel so tired indeed. Well, tomorrow will be my last working day in 2009. Since I’m talking about job first, I’ll start with my job in 2009.

On Feb 2009, I decided to join to another company in Balikpapan. It was quite difficult to start over. I realized I need to have my ladder, which I’ve never had before. So fortunate that my current boss and colleagues are great people. I did learned many things in previous company, especially about having good attitudes and being grown up. I can’t wait for the moment I get involved in the transition team starting January 2010. It should be FUN!

When 2009 is almost ended, I got a new nephew from my lovely roommate. Fourth nephew, how harder could it be, after three boys of my brother’s? :p A little girl would make their world colorful, isn’t it? I hope my little girl Soo…now I’m talking about raising a child?!! Hehehehe…one day, never know about when.

A few hours before my fourth nephew came out, I had just hit by a train. Of course not literally. A marriage should be a good news, isn’t it? I can’t say whether it’s good or bad for this one. It could be never mine, from time point of view. I won’t say a ‘Yes’ word if it was me.

We started our time with lies and self-righteous. Did you try to start over with me? Did you send S.O.S? If you did, you were full of it. I couldn’t stand to be always intimidated. We hurt each other as easy as we made jokes. You don’t need to make an ‘if it were you’. If I were there, maybe we could be drown together. I was too afraid to fall. I’m sorry I didn’t let us to give a try. So this is it. When i see you again, you’ll have had her by your side already, until death parts.

These things flash in my head recently.

It’s time to have retreat

Originally by Tony Bennet. Remake by Jamie Cullum (The Pursuit)
If I ruled the world, ev’ry day would be the first day of spring
Every heart would have a new song to sing
And we’d sing of the joy every morning would bring

If I ruled the world, ev’ry man would be as free as a bird,
Ev’ry voice would be a voice to be heard
Take my word we would treasure each day that occurred
My world would be a beautiful place
Where we would weave such wonderful dreams
My world would wear a smile on its face
Like the man in the moon has when the moon beams

If I ruled the world every man would say the world was his friend
There’d be happiness that no man coud end
No my friend, not if I ruled the world
Every head would be held up high
There’d be sunshine in everyone’s sky
If the day ever dawned when I ruled the world

I just close my eyes when hearing this song, remembering the time when I could lay on your shoulder in the rainy days.