Hellooo 2011
10 Apr 2011 Leave a Comment
It’s April already! 
Up to now, 2011 has been doing good to me.
In Dec 2010, I got a wonderful opportunity to broaden my choices. In the early 2011, I finally had a very good news. A dream company since my internship program, hired me as one of senior officers there, including a better career and an opportunity to be back to my original root.
I thought it was the time for me to leap. If it came 6 months earlier, I won’t be in doubt at all. I was only an ordinary woman who chose her step by her feeling. I never thought it would be so sad to leave. It wasn’t only sad, but really hurt.
I left, and prepared to leap. The new place was really nice, and finally I got what I’ve always hoped, an acceptance. Beyond the logically perimeters, I felt something else, which finally made me chose to retreat.
In all of my entire life, I never had those amazing choices, which needed a bigger wisdom for me to make a decision. I chose not to leap, and it peaced me. Some might think that a particular person made me stay. But actually, no one had an extra time to convince me to stay. It was my real decision. This is my adventure.
For me, Allah SWT answered my prayer, to give choices. I thought I never had choices, but in the other hand why do I need to choose while Allah SWT always gives me the best?!
Alhamdulillah, I’m saying it with every molecule in me
Shoes
23 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
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Isn’t the Louboutin Vicky Beckham edition lovely?? 
I think a normal person would think it’s just a simple nice shoes. I love this shoes, I want to have it, but I don’t desperately want to have it since it’ll cost me a lot… hehe 
I don’t intend to write about the Louboutin itself, but I’ve just remembered what one of my lecturer had said about high heels. She said: “I don’t like using high heels, that what a background dancer is wearing. I’m not a backgorund dancer, because she’s just on the background.” A non-sense story telling, especially when she’s just mocking a halal profession and a fashion. A non-sense lecturer because she put a C for her lecture to my (super briliant) friend who caught fell asleep in her class. A lecturer which in Pram’s (Pramudya Ananta Toer) words is blindly need a respect. What would she do if she’s in the background dancer shoes, what would she’d be if she’s not gifted to be a child where the parents don’t think that education is important.
Fortunately, I had much more respectful lecturers who thought fell asleep in the class was much more better than chit chat in the class. I was a lazy student, and I can’t stop being how grateful I am because I had the opportunities to be one of those briliant, thoughtful, idealistic lecturers’ student.
A background dancer, it might be not everybody’s dream job, but it’s halal. Maybe the background dancer she ever saw was in some cheap national TV show, instead of Beyonce’s background dancer :p But what I want emphasize is some of professions might not be popular; compare to being government officers, lecturer, doctor, etc; but you can’t judge on people’s choice about halal job. Gayus, a government officer, is much worse than any background dancers in the world.
If I were working in one government institutions and had a job like Gayus, would I be like him? Probably yes. I am not a saint who don’t like money. I do, especially when you grow up in consumerism and see the reality to get a good health and education are expensive, you need a lot of money. Since I like money, I don’t work in government institution and I cherish free market capitalsm, where brain is respected much more than blood.
To get good brains nationwide, we need my briliant lecturers times a thousand. They are not just giving the knowledge but the idea of idealism, being a professional, and innovative person. May those good brains ferret our society
still incomplete
22 Dec 2010 3 Comments
Do you remember Jerry Maguire’s (Tom Cruise) words to Renee Zellweger’s character, “cause you complete me…”?
I should have met him since 2004, but I’ve just noticed about him over a year ago. My parents would be very very very happy if he was the guy I brought to home instead of mas. I thought once again I could floating in the sky. But now, I think 6 months is an enough period to try out being (more than) friends. And he still incompletes me.
Living in Balikpapan
30 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in balikpapan, Journey Tags: house
Sometime in June 2010, an idea stroke my head. What if I buy a house?? I’m 25 and not having any single properties.
So…since 2 months ago I regularly visited some housing sites, which was easy since there are not a lot of housing complex here. It was predictable that I looked at Balikpapan Baru and Tamansari Bukit Mutiara (WIKA). It was predictable too that my salary couldn’t afford a descent house in Balikpapan Baru.
I’ve seen some housing complexes in Bekasi, Cibubur, and Karawaci. Well…this WIKA complex was not bad, except the difficulties on electricity and water, which is sadly common in BPN 
I actually searched on a cluster. It has minimalist concept and it’s the newest cluster. The cluster now is almost full. Although the houses are almost fully occupied, the cluster is still nice, without giving any slump sense
In this past few months, I got thorough my financial balance and assets. I could say I’ve almost put all the assets at risk. Some of my friends said that if i never be a smart reckless (alias nekat) to get a house, or I’d never get one. But nevertheless, I retreated from the plan this afternoon. It didn’t mean that I retreated all of my financial plans, just for this one. I haven’t needed a house. I do still enjoying my tiny rent room, and am still looking forward a partner to live in my his future house with *uhuy! prikitiu!*
But anyway, this roller coaster financial plan thaught me a lot about KPR. Click simulasi kredit to count the monthly installment for the amount of the credit. And..never believe a low interest, always prepare the worst case in KPR period. It’s better not to count the interest below 11%. But I found a national bank (BNI46) that might be good for a start and give a competitive KPR interest.
Variables of Life
19 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in Love...Life... Tags: school
Adakah angka konstan di persamaan kehidupan?
Atau hidup bisa dibilang sebagai persamaan?
Jika hidup itu persamaan, maka hidup ini terdiri dari jutaan variable yg setiap detiknya dapat bertambah/berkurang. Dalam asumsi saya, hidup bukan salah satu contoh dari Halting Problems, karena kita manusia wajib mencari solusi dalam setiap masalah di kehidupan kita dan apabila kita berusaha Insya Allah, Dia akan memberikan solusi
So why did i come up with this variable things? Karena sekarang spontanitas yg pernah gw punya sudah sangat berkurang. Terlalu banyak ‘jika’ di pikiran saya untuk mengambil suatu keputusan. Kalau semua jika ini dibuat menjadi decision tree, maka tree yg ada di kepala saya memang benar2 perlu di-prune, dengan cara:
1. kategorisasi, penting dan tidak penting
2. hilangkan ‘tidak penting’ karena menjadi noise
3. menghitung resource
4. menentukan prioritas berdasarkan no 3
5. evaluasi prioritas.
Hmm….kayanya kalo ini beneran jadi algoritma, bakal jadi infinite loop. Kalo gak jadi infinite loop pun, akan menghasilkan nilai O(decision tree pruning) yg sangat besar.
ooohh…I miss school time.
