…go away, my love
i want you to stay, in my life
don’t go away, my lover
I’m happiest when we spend time (it’s only you and I)

It’s you there when I close my eyes
And you in the morning
I never thought you’d still be mine
Or I’d really need to have you around

borrowed from Gwen Stefani.
Waktu ada disia-sia, pas gak ada dinanti-nanti. Jauh amat sih perginya, lama amat pulangnya.



is not about socks.

Yesterday was the first day I became a project owner. It wasn’t the day my boss gave me the assignment, but it was the first time I have my pre-qualification meeting for my first RFI (Request for Information). Hiyay! So exciting about this project, even though the budget allocation for this project is like a penny, it’s still my very first project. Owh, you really can’t believe how painful the first time i had to make my very first Scope of Work was.

About SOX
This thing was begun from my second candidate vendor mentioned about this thing. SOX or SABOX stands for Sarbanes-Oxley Act. It is the act to make sure the financial governance in every companies. This act was triggered by many financial fraud cases in large enterprises in US. Transparency is the main objective of this act. There are 11 titles in this SOX that regulate management’s steps in assigning reports, audits, etc, etc. Document tracks and versions are one of SOX implementations, that’s why enterprise content management is very needed in many big companies. Companies must comply to this act, from ordinary documents/reports, tax reports, balance sheet reports, etc, etc.

But I totally agree that our APBN (National Annual Budgeting) should comply to this. Ahahahaha. Those mice in our national house would have a damageable headache. 😀

Do I care?
Not really, but i was very curious. Why? Since my second candidate’s partner spoke to me about it as if he was mocking me about my clueless about this. Damn! But, it’s OK! I’m still the owner! Hahahaha. I really have the control. And seriously, my interest to this second candidate has totally lost. Ahahahaha.


Bleeding Love

by Leona Lewis

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

Kalo gak salah Simon ‘American Idol’ bilang Leona Lewis itu penyanyi Inggris pertama yg dia bilang keren. Waktu di Oprah Winfrey Show sih. Tapi over all lagunya easy listening. Hasil donlotan gw ada yg lagunya rusak, sebagian ketiban ama lagu bleeding love itu. Aneh. Dan ternyata….bukan karena mp3 nya, tapi karena iTunes gw minta di-restart. Ahahahaha. Senangnya…


Dangerous Zone

is comfort area.
*masih amaze ama tampilan admin wordpress yg baru*

Salah satu materi training basic supervisory yg kemaren gw terima, waktu terlama untuk tetap di posisi yg sama di company yg sama adalah selama 4 tahun, karena faktor kejenuhan, dll, dll. Itu juga yg ada di pikiran gw. Gw malah berfikir untuk menetap di tempat ini paling lama 2 tahun. Tapi, sekarang gw jadi pemalas dan penakut. Gw berpikir untuk tetap berada di bawah bendera corporate ini, walopun gw pengen pindah ke business unit yg lain. Siapa tau ke tambang berlian di nyaris Kutub Utara, ato mendekati kutub selatan di ujung adelaide. Tapi pengen tetep di bendera corporate yg sama.

Hari ini akhirnya bisa browsing hal2 di luar keperluan kantor. Salah satu tempat browsing tentu aja, Yak, ini salah satu website yg setia didatengin oleh org kantoran kayanya. Penyakit manusia, gak pernah puas. Well…sama sih kaya gw. Ahahahahaha.

Bulan Maret kayanya gw cuma kerja selama seminggu doang, dari masalah operasi gigi, kakak gw married, trus gw masuk RS, ijin lanjutan buat istirahat. Tetep digaji sebulan. See?!! Sekarang gw udah jadi salah satu anggota ‘tergantung gaji bulanan’ fans club! Padahal dari jaman gw sekolah, gw termasuk anggota ‘anti kemapananan’ fans club.

Karena gw sekarang udah mulai masuk ‘comfort area’, gw males berubah. Gw gak mau mulai sesuatu dari nol lagi. Gw gak mau coba masuk ke tempat yg bener2 baru. Padahal ada peluang bagus di salah satu perusahaan spore, masuk minat gw, challenge yg pastinya sangat gede. Kenapa untuk mulai nyoba aja gw udah mulai takut ya?! Kalo alasannya ‘gw blom setahun di sini’, sangat masuk akal. Tapi bukan itu perasaan gw. Ato karena merasa berhutang budi karena gw udah dapet 100% medical fees ketika neraca keuangan masih minus terus?!