balikpapan, Journey, Songs

The Playlist

When BPN didn’t have any cinemas, me and my friends used to hang out in karaoke place until midnight. Thursday and Saturday were karaoke day, at least twice a month 😉 We had mandatory play list:
1. Biarlah by Nidji
2. Starlight by Muse
3. Out of Love by Air Supply
4. Don’t Turn of The Light by Entique Iglesias
5. Iwan Fals’s songs
6. Dia Milikku by Yovie and Nuno
7. Makhluk Tuhan yg Paling Sexy by Mulan (the lamest song in our playlist) :p
8. Bed of Roses by Bon Jovi
9. Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer
10. There She Goes by Sixpence None The Richer
11. Goyang Duyu by Project Pop
12. Old rock songs (if we had it with the boys, including mas) :p

I predict we’ll never gonna have this play list anymore since the lay off. Miss you guys… Miss your voice too, Mas.

Journey, Love...Life...

People come, people go @ 2008

This is the 2008’s last day. Many things happened in this year, start from jobs, new rent room, friends, projects, to crush.

In the very beginning of 2008, the Orde Baru symbol finally passed away after a long time of sickness. He also was the 2nd president of Indonesia, don’t need to mention his name. Personally, I feel sad he’s passed away since he hasn’t opened the Indonesia mafioso cartel yet.

At the end of the 1st quarter, I had my first tender. Although it was an amateur one, i still feel happy getting know new people in consulting business. Still about projects, i did enjoy both of the projects, although i did a head-to-toe jobs by myself and without any real mentor. I do also feel so sad since both of the projects haven’t done yet or at stake to be precise.

In the middle of the year, i met some precious people. The first one is in the middle of europe with his family now and the second one is talking with through YM! now 😀 Both are precious in building and defining what i want to have as a career. SO fortunate to meet them. In the same time, i also had my biggest crush ever. The first time i spilled the idea of living together in the name of marriage, talked about what i wanted to be, and many private matters with him, it was the first time i felt like i’m a mature woman. Silly!! The fact that i’m very childish is still exist right now. Obviously, being with mas was so comfortable; jungle, camp, bar, mall, mess, office, crowded place, with drink, without drink, smoking area, non smoking area, or any other place on earth. We’ve said goodbye each other, but who knows what would happen next 🙂

At the beginning of the 4th quarter, my person, my partner in crime left Indonesia to pursue her master degree. Still a lil bit lonely since i can’t really make a phone call with her. Since she’s in europe now, i should make some money to visit her 😀 *wish me luck!*


Liburan part (1)

My plane touched down at CGK JKT on 24 December 2008. Yey! I’m in JKT!!

The first day, i went to hospital and I had me examined by my gynecologist. Nothing wrong on me, just lack of vegetables and fruits. Common problem for most of nowadays females 😦 After that, went to ITC Kuningan for small shopping. (It was small because i went with my mother, she’ll be very shock if she saw my real shopping bills :p) The first day was amusing since i got back to home by Mikrolet (public transportation) and 2 hours trip from Kuningan to Pondok Kelapa. Why it was amusing? It’s been almost 1,5 years i never had mikrolet 😀

Second day, i went to hospital to visit Zaki’s father. It was a real shock for me since the family ambiance felt like he’ll be gone soon. May Allah SWT gave them strength for every possibilities. After visiting hospital, i went to a salon in Plaza Semanggi. It was my first experience going to salon in a mall. I like stand alone salon more than salon at a mall. Then, dinner with my seniors @ Kelapa Gading Mall (my first visit to this mall after 3 years of absent :p ).

The third day was so great! I cooked! Hahahaha. Yes! I cooked! Just simple thing, Oseng Oncom, but still..I cooked 😀 I made my best friends tasted my cook. usual, they doubt my ability, but their stomachs are still just fine until now 😀
In the afternoon i met with some friends from JKT office. The office was great, made me so lazy to go back to BPN office. “Transfer me to JKT, please :)” I plan to say it as my first sentence when i meet my boss in BPN next week 😀 I watched Australia in XXI EX Plaza Indonesia and ate ramen at Beppu Menkan. The movie was quite long, but it gave beautiful cinematography and great acting, and of course the beautiful Hugh Jackman :3
Still in the 3rd day at 620PM, amel called and said that Zaki’s father passed away. I picked up the phone while i was walking on the middle of Plaza Indonesia atrium. I stopped suddenly and almost got myself hit by other pedestrians. I just let myself pulled by Mey (she was my roommate at BPN mess) to the right direction. After finished with Amel’s call, i sent sms to some best friends about this news and regarded my condolence to Zaki by SMS.

Day 4, i went to cemetery with some friends. I thought i wouldn’t cry, but i couldn’t hold some tears after Beruang said how messy i was. It’s strange to feel sad when someone you don’t really know pass away. Seeing how tough the family were, is something i need to learn that death is just an ordinary thing. What make it not ordinary is other people can’t continue the bliss of decent life with this person. May Allah SWT places him in one of His great places. Amin


People Come people Go

Fools Like Me — Lisa Loeb

Everybody go
The party’s over
I want to be alone in my head
In my bed tonight
You never show

You must really love her
You think I don’t know
But I do, yeah it’s true
I think over is over

I’m right back where I started
(when it comes to wanting you)
I can’t have what I wanted

But I did, I can
I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed
If love is blind
If love’s a drug
It always is
It always was and
Love was surely made for fools like me

I know where I’m going
I’m tripping I’m sliding around
That’s ok
At least I’m excited
It wasn’t how I planned it
(wasn’t how I planned it
Feet are where I landed
At least I understand it now)
My feet are where I landed
(feet are staying on the ground)

Fools like me
Fools like me

I did, I can
I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed

Maybe it’s the sanest thing
Or just the sweetest kind of dream
But love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools like me

This song is one of Grey’s Anatomy soundtracks. It suits in my current condition. My Balikpapan best friends, my roommate, my favorite geologist, my favorite partner, my mentor everybody has gone to JKT. Yesterday was like the climax for me. When i walked my favorite geologist to the car, i couldn’t hold my tears. I knew it was very silly. He just sit next to me, touched my head, waited a little longer to make me a little bit calm. I was nearly like a 3 years old girl who will be left by her father. When he told he’d resign, i’d know i’ll burst my tears for him.

Sometimes life isn’t fair enough. All kind people seems disappear easily or being away from me in a short time. It traps us in an inconvenience condition. Well..maybe i think it isn’t fair enough because i need a safe condition. When we always in a safe condition, it makes us very naive. I’m naive, spoiled, cry baby…you name it. Try to be a grown up is hard, but have to. Despite our choice to have a rock n roll life, but we understand that someday we’ll be leaving that life.

People come, and people go. You’ve just come to my life. You expected me as a shallow little girl, i hope you’ll find out i’m out of it. You thought i’m waiting for prince charming and living in it, but no, i’m not waiting for him, because you’re not as charming as prince. Both of us need to come out from our current dreams. I’m not going anywhere, standing still, wait for the time I can’t say ‘no’ when you ask me to leave.