à vingth sept
12 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
Horee…It’s April 2012! Already?!
This blog has probably changed from daily into anually updates. What ashame! :p
And afterall, it’s also my first draft in 2012. Mungkin ini efek udah bosen bikin project report / requirement analysis report juga.
I’m 27. Ini pertama kalinya rela nyebutin umur beneran :p It’s not about getting older, but how I feel I’ve made tiny achievements during these 27 years. In my current age, most of my friends have finally settled down and have kids. Et moi? Ce n’est pas clair. Il est le longtemps rêve.
But somehow the thought of being settled down tickles when i have a visit to my dearest senior/friend Nongky home. What a lovely small family *terharu*. Tau kan Nongs kenapa gw suka dateng ke rumahlu walopun sambil minta makan gratis xD
Dans le cours, mon proffesseur m’a demandé pour explicer mon future mariage. That was a ‘halah’ moment. It was one of the things I called absurd. Boong gak sih kalo gw sambil bilang gak tau ama siapa punya acara itu. And my brain was fulfilled with his rarely smiling face. Many people said that the best person you want to be with is your bestfriend. Well, kenyataannya my long time bestfriend is expecting his baby. Deng dong! Coret! But yes, if I could turn back time, I probably would have you.
At 27, my dearest sister reminds me to achieve what i’ve pursued since my graduation day. The fact is I can not go into that track for a while, but I’m working on that. Two big goals yet in opposite direction are awaiting for me, so I can’t afford being patient now.
So now, I’m 27, in a fast track, impatient.
*picture take from http://www.tunaruna.com/
Hellooo 2011
10 Apr 2011 Leave a Comment
It’s April already! 
Up to now, 2011 has been doing good to me.
In Dec 2010, I got a wonderful opportunity to broaden my choices. In the early 2011, I finally had a very good news. A dream company since my internship program, hired me as one of senior officers there, including a better career and an opportunity to be back to my original root.
I thought it was the time for me to leap. If it came 6 months earlier, I won’t be in doubt at all. I was only an ordinary woman who chose her step by her feeling. I never thought it would be so sad to leave. It wasn’t only sad, but really hurt.
I left, and prepared to leap. The new place was really nice, and finally I got what I’ve always hoped, an acceptance. Beyond the logically perimeters, I felt something else, which finally made me chose to retreat.
In all of my entire life, I never had those amazing choices, which needed a bigger wisdom for me to make a decision. I chose not to leap, and it peaced me. Some might think that a particular person made me stay. But actually, no one had an extra time to convince me to stay. It was my real decision. This is my adventure.
For me, Allah SWT answered my prayer, to give choices. I thought I never had choices, but in the other hand why do I need to choose while Allah SWT always gives me the best?!
Alhamdulillah, I’m saying it with every molecule in me
Shoes
23 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
in Journey, Love...Life..., opini
Isn’t the Louboutin Vicky Beckham edition lovely?? 
I think a normal person would think it’s just a simple nice shoes. I love this shoes, I want to have it, but I don’t desperately want to have it since it’ll cost me a lot… hehe 
I don’t intend to write about the Louboutin itself, but I’ve just remembered what one of my lecturer had said about high heels. She said: “I don’t like using high heels, that what a background dancer is wearing. I’m not a backgorund dancer, because she’s just on the background.” A non-sense story telling, especially when she’s just mocking a halal profession and a fashion. A non-sense lecturer because she put a C for her lecture to my (super briliant) friend who caught fell asleep in her class. A lecturer which in Pram’s (Pramudya Ananta Toer) words is blindly need a respect. What would she do if she’s in the background dancer shoes, what would she’d be if she’s not gifted to be a child where the parents don’t think that education is important.
Fortunately, I had much more respectful lecturers who thought fell asleep in the class was much more better than chit chat in the class. I was a lazy student, and I can’t stop being how grateful I am because I had the opportunities to be one of those briliant, thoughtful, idealistic lecturers’ student.
A background dancer, it might be not everybody’s dream job, but it’s halal. Maybe the background dancer she ever saw was in some cheap national TV show, instead of Beyonce’s background dancer :p But what I want emphasize is some of professions might not be popular; compare to being government officers, lecturer, doctor, etc; but you can’t judge on people’s choice about halal job. Gayus, a government officer, is much worse than any background dancers in the world.
If I were working in one government institutions and had a job like Gayus, would I be like him? Probably yes. I am not a saint who don’t like money. I do, especially when you grow up in consumerism and see the reality to get a good health and education are expensive, you need a lot of money. Since I like money, I don’t work in government institution and I cherish free market capitalsm, where brain is respected much more than blood.
To get good brains nationwide, we need my briliant lecturers times a thousand. They are not just giving the knowledge but the idea of idealism, being a professional, and innovative person. May those good brains ferret our society
still incomplete
22 Dec 2010 3 Comments
Do you remember Jerry Maguire’s (Tom Cruise) words to Renee Zellweger’s character, “cause you complete me…”?
I should have met him since 2004, but I’ve just noticed about him over a year ago. My parents would be very very very happy if he was the guy I brought to home instead of mas. I thought once again I could floating in the sky. But now, I think 6 months is an enough period to try out being (more than) friends. And he still incompletes me.
Living in Balikpapan
30 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in balikpapan, Journey Tags: house
Sometime in June 2010, an idea stroke my head. What if I buy a house?? I’m 25 and not having any single properties.
So…since 2 months ago I regularly visited some housing sites, which was easy since there are not a lot of housing complex here. It was predictable that I looked at Balikpapan Baru and Tamansari Bukit Mutiara (WIKA). It was predictable too that my salary couldn’t afford a descent house in Balikpapan Baru.
I’ve seen some housing complexes in Bekasi, Cibubur, and Karawaci. Well…this WIKA complex was not bad, except the difficulties on electricity and water, which is sadly common in BPN 
I actually searched on a cluster. It has minimalist concept and it’s the newest cluster. The cluster now is almost full. Although the houses are almost fully occupied, the cluster is still nice, without giving any slump sense
In this past few months, I got thorough my financial balance and assets. I could say I’ve almost put all the assets at risk. Some of my friends said that if i never be a smart reckless (alias nekat) to get a house, or I’d never get one. But nevertheless, I retreated from the plan this afternoon. It didn’t mean that I retreated all of my financial plans, just for this one. I haven’t needed a house. I do still enjoying my tiny rent room, and am still looking forward a partner to live in my his future house with *uhuy! prikitiu!*
But anyway, this roller coaster financial plan thaught me a lot about KPR. Click simulasi kredit to count the monthly installment for the amount of the credit. And..never believe a low interest, always prepare the worst case in KPR period. It’s better not to count the interest below 11%. But I found a national bank (BNI46) that might be good for a start and give a competitive KPR interest.
